Category Archives: Grief

Dreaming Flowers

Posted on February 16, 2017 by mahines

Today is Valentine’s Day. Tonight when I get home, my dear husband will greet me with a cocktail and a kiss. The dogs will mug me, push against me and beat me with wagging tails. We’ll have a simple dinner … Continue reading →

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And The Angels Smiled

Posted on October 12, 2015 by mahines

In a crowd, you stood alone amid a swirling cloud of loss and emptiness. I saw in your eyes the same weary sadness that haunts my sleepless nights. Your shoulders pressed down under the weight of endless grief. My heart … Continue reading →

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Matthew 7:1

Posted on December 1, 2014 by mahines

I grew up in a family where, whenever I would be upset or cry over something, I was told “Oh stop it.  There’s worse in the world than you.”  I’m sure it was meant to toughen me up, make me … Continue reading →

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There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio

Posted on November 20, 2014 by mahines

Yesterday was the six month anniversary of my step-son’s death.  My husband said nothing about it and neither did I.  I thought, perhaps, he didn’t want to talk about it. Matthew’s death has been numbing for all of us.  I … Continue reading →

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On Watch

Posted on November 2, 2014 by mahines

We are on watch today.  We may be losing Gilligan.  My husband found him at the bottom of the stairs this morning.  He was lying in his own pee and couldn’t get up.  We made a bed of towels in … Continue reading →

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Robin

Posted on August 12, 2014 by mahines

Kind eyes. Gentle eyes. Sadness buried deep within. An Alchemist of Laughter turning stones of sorrow into bright bubbles of joy. You danced a mad cha cha with the dark angles. Until at last you fell, exhausted into their embrace. And … Continue reading →

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Happy Trails

Posted on July 30, 2014 by mahines

The other day, I wrote about my gift of roses that I received after my husband’s death.  Many people think they were a sign from my him but I believe they were from my mother.  Roses had significance for her … Continue reading →

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The Rose

Posted on July 29, 2014 by mahines

I’ve been trying to find the words to tell my story about the rose.  It was a watershed experience in my life and I worry that I won’t be able to make it come out right.  So I’ll just plunge … Continue reading →

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Back on Track

Posted on May 28, 2014 by mahines

Yesterday was my first day back at work since losing Matt. The funeral was Friday. I thought we would have the long Memorial Day weekend to ease back into the real world but our boat sold and we had only these … Continue reading →

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There is no crying in baseball

Posted on May 22, 2014 by mahines

I was raised with my mother’s family, the O’Briens, an Irish Catholic brood in the era of the Kennedys. Like many Irish Catholic families, the Kennedys were demi-gods to us. I’m not sure whether we strove to emulate them or … Continue reading →

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