Category Archives: Change

Vanquished

Posted on December 5, 2015 by mahines

I lived for 21 years with a man who terrorized me; physically, mentally, emotionally. In the beginning, before we were married, he wasn’t like that. He wooed me and pretended he liked me the way I was. I was younger … Continue reading →

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Shedding Old Skin

Posted on October 5, 2015 by mahines

On Saturday, when we came back from dropping the dogs off at grooming, I noticed what I thought was biggest earth worm I had ever seen. When I looked a little closer, I saw that it was a ribbon snake. … Continue reading →

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For A Smart Girl…….

Posted on September 18, 2015 by mahines

When I was growing up, my mother would often say to me “For a smart girl, you sure say (do, think) some awfully stupid things. It sounds mean, but she was right. Sometimes it’s like my big brain takes a … Continue reading →

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On Becomming

Posted on August 21, 2015 by mahines

Today I turn 61.  I never thought I be this old.  I can remember thinking “Wow, at the turn of the century, I’ll be almost 50!”  It seemed so far in the future.  Now I’m looking at it in the … Continue reading →

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Finding Peace In The Storm

Posted on August 1, 2015 by mahines

I have been struggling with my life quite a bit lately; constantly asking myself “Why am I not doing what I want to do?”, “Why am I not in the place I want to be with my spirit and my … Continue reading →

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Open The Door And Let In The Light

Posted on July 30, 2015 by mahines

Open the door and let in the light. For the past few months, this phrase has been running through my head. In moments when the static of everyday life quiets, Open the door and let in the light. At night, … Continue reading →

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Angry Bones

Posted on November 18, 2014 by mahines

I have a secret. I have anger in my bones. Deep in the marrow, Hot, burning grains that grind and crunch with every move. And in the darkest chamber of my heart, it pulses with a sickly, green glow. I … Continue reading →

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Bittersweet Hope

Posted on November 3, 2014 by mahines

I’m exhasted.  I didn’t sleep well last night.  I thought I was ready for this.  I held it together until I picked up Gilligan and put him in the back of the car.  I cried all the way to the … Continue reading →

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Happy Rebirthday!

Posted on August 28, 2014 by mahines

Last week we spent a few days up in Boston celebrating my birthday.  One afternoon while we were relaxing, waiting to go out, I checked my iPad.  There were several notifications from WordPress that had been sitting unopened for a … Continue reading →

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A Leap of Faith

Posted on August 8, 2014 by mahines

I always find it difficult to write about spiritual/mystical experiences.   I grew up in a family that prayed to the saints for everything – a lost sock, to sell a house, to be safe in the car, you name … Continue reading →

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