Category Archives: Death

The Fruit of the Tree of Knowledge

Posted on January 26, 2016 by mahines

It was the summer most of us graduated from college. We were artists; dancers, singers, musicians, actors and migrated immediately to NYC to start our new lives. There was a building on E. 52nd Street that a number of previous … Continue reading →

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Sifting Through A Life

Posted on January 19, 2016 by mahines

I was sick this weekend, down with some bug that left me feeling like I had been body-slammed by The Hulk. I wanted nothing more on Saturday but to remain in bed as late as possible and then to spend … Continue reading →

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Transitions

Posted on December 14, 2015 by mahines

They lit the candle outside my Aunt’s room tonight. There was Christmas music from the CD player next to her bed and a blank journal for visitors to write in. After I left, they were changing the sheets from standard … Continue reading →

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And The Angels Smiled

Posted on October 12, 2015 by mahines

In a crowd, you stood alone amid a swirling cloud of loss and emptiness. I saw in your eyes the same weary sadness that haunts my sleepless nights. Your shoulders pressed down under the weight of endless grief. My heart … Continue reading →

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Heart and Hands

Posted on December 19, 2014 by mahines

Today is three weeks since I let Gilligan go home.  Most of the time, I’m able to push it out of my mind.  Until I look at my hands. The last month of his life, I had my hands in … Continue reading →

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There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio

Posted on November 20, 2014 by mahines

Yesterday was the six month anniversary of my step-son’s death.  My husband said nothing about it and neither did I.  I thought, perhaps, he didn’t want to talk about it. Matthew’s death has been numbing for all of us.  I … Continue reading →

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Bittersweet Hope

Posted on November 3, 2014 by mahines

I’m exhasted.  I didn’t sleep well last night.  I thought I was ready for this.  I held it together until I picked up Gilligan and put him in the back of the car.  I cried all the way to the … Continue reading →

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On Watch

Posted on November 2, 2014 by mahines

We are on watch today.  We may be losing Gilligan.  My husband found him at the bottom of the stairs this morning.  He was lying in his own pee and couldn’t get up.  We made a bed of towels in … Continue reading →

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Robin

Posted on August 12, 2014 by mahines

Kind eyes. Gentle eyes. Sadness buried deep within. An Alchemist of Laughter turning stones of sorrow into bright bubbles of joy. You danced a mad cha cha with the dark angles. Until at last you fell, exhausted into their embrace. And … Continue reading →

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Happy Trails

Posted on July 30, 2014 by mahines

The other day, I wrote about my gift of roses that I received after my husband’s death.  Many people think they were a sign from my him but I believe they were from my mother.  Roses had significance for her … Continue reading →

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