Category Archives: Dogs

The Visit

You barked in my heart this morning. I wasn’t expecting it. I was driving to the train, watching the truck in front of me, keeping a safe distance. And suddenly, there were your eyes looking up at me. Tears blurred … Continue reading

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Heart and Hands

Today is three weeks since I let Gilligan go home.  Most of the time, I’m able to push it out of my mind.  Until I look at my hands. The last month of his life, I had my hands in … Continue reading

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Silly Girl

You make me laugh, Silly Girl. When my heart is numb and my eyes burn with dried tears, you come to me full of joy. You grab my hand and say “Let’s play!” Do you ever know sadness? Or is … Continue reading

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Do The Right Thing – Post Script

My 90 year old aunt is staying with us and we didn’t tell her about Gilligan.  Honestly,  I didn’t know myself we were going to let him go until we were at the vet’s.  When we got home, we told … Continue reading

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Do The Right Thing

Yesterday, we drove to Long Island.  Every year, on the Friday after Thanksgiving, we go to place Christmas blankets on my husband’s parents’ grave.  This year, we placed one on his son’s grave too.  It was a strange day, solemn … Continue reading

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Bittersweet Hope

I’m exhasted.  I didn’t sleep well last night.  I thought I was ready for this.  I held it together until I picked up Gilligan and put him in the back of the car.  I cried all the way to the … Continue reading

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On Watch

We are on watch today.  We may be losing Gilligan.  My husband found him at the bottom of the stairs this morning.  He was lying in his own pee and couldn’t get up.  We made a bed of towels in … Continue reading

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