Category Archives: Dogs

The Visit

Posted on January 16, 2015 by mahines

You barked in my heart this morning. I wasn’t expecting it. I was driving to the train, watching the truck in front of me, keeping a safe distance. And suddenly, there were your eyes looking up at me. Tears blurred … Continue reading →

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Heart and Hands

Posted on December 19, 2014 by mahines

Today is three weeks since I let Gilligan go home.  Most of the time, I’m able to push it out of my mind.  Until I look at my hands. The last month of his life, I had my hands in … Continue reading →

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Silly Girl

Posted on December 16, 2014 by mahines

You make me laugh, Silly Girl. When my heart is numb and my eyes burn with dried tears, you come to me full of joy. You grab my hand and say “Let’s play!” Do you ever know sadness? Or is … Continue reading →

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Do The Right Thing – Post Script

Posted on November 29, 2014 by mahines

My 90 year old aunt is staying with us and we didn’t tell her about Gilligan.  Honestly,  I didn’t know myself we were going to let him go until we were at the vet’s.  When we got home, we told … Continue reading →

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Do The Right Thing

Posted on November 29, 2014 by mahines

Yesterday, we drove to Long Island.  Every year, on the Friday after Thanksgiving, we go to place Christmas blankets on my husband’s parents’ grave.  This year, we placed one on his son’s grave too.  It was a strange day, solemn … Continue reading →

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Bittersweet Hope

Posted on November 3, 2014 by mahines

I’m exhasted.  I didn’t sleep well last night.  I thought I was ready for this.  I held it together until I picked up Gilligan and put him in the back of the car.  I cried all the way to the … Continue reading →

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On Watch

Posted on November 2, 2014 by mahines

We are on watch today.  We may be losing Gilligan.  My husband found him at the bottom of the stairs this morning.  He was lying in his own pee and couldn’t get up.  We made a bed of towels in … Continue reading →

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Commuter Therapy

Posted on October 20, 2014 by mahines

Last week was a particularly crappy commuting week: stalled train with 2 hour delay,  rain slick roads with multiple accidents, slippery-rail slowdowns, and tons of leaf-peepers with luggage.  By the time Friday evening rolled around, everyone was cranky city. The … Continue reading →

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Spring Cleaning

Posted on May 3, 2014 by mahines

With so much disorder in my life right now, I decided to try to put some order into my house. With three dogs and a construction mud pit out back, I’m living in a dirt hole. I thought I would … Continue reading →

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One More Summer

Posted on March 10, 2014 by mahines

  Give me one more summer, Old Man. One more summer to walk down the road While you trot along beside me in the tall grass. It’s too cold for you now And you are so unsure on the ice. … Continue reading →

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