Author Archives: mahines

Solitary

Posted on November 14, 2017 by mahines

Seventeen years ago today, my first husband died. Seventeen years. The same number of years we were married. We were together twenty-one years, one third of my life. One third of my life hearing what a disaster I was. One … Continue reading →

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Mother’s Day Redux

Posted on May 14, 2017 by mahines

Yesterday I wrote about my Aunt Mary and wished her a Happy Mother’s Day. She is someone I miss dearly. I barely mentioned my Mother except to say we had a difficult relationship. I thought I had made peace with … Continue reading →

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Aunt Mary’s Garden

Posted on May 13, 2017 by mahines

Tomorrow is Mothers Day. I did not have a good relationship with my mother. I was going to write about that but decided to write about the woman who was my more my real mother. The summer I turned seven, … Continue reading →

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Dreaming Flowers

Posted on February 16, 2017 by mahines

Today is Valentine’s Day. Tonight when I get home, my dear husband will greet me with a cocktail and a kiss. The dogs will mug me, push against me and beat me with wagging tails. We’ll have a simple dinner … Continue reading →

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It Was A Dark And Stormy Night

Posted on October 31, 2016 by mahines

A creative group I belong to suggested that we use the prompt “It was a dark and stormy night” to come up with something for Halloween.  As a child, I always loved “Alfred Hitchcock Presents”.  The stories were always eerie … Continue reading →

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Is It A Vanity

Posted on September 1, 2016 by mahines

There is a doe who lives in the woods behind our barn.  In the summer, we often see her and her new fawn make their way down through the ferns to cross the road at the bottom of our hill. … Continue reading →

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Tonic

Posted on July 9, 2016 by mahines

I’m sitting outside at the teak table, finishing my coffee, taking a break between errand runs. It’s overcast and chilly for July. I could use a sweater. But the slight chill feels good in an odd way. I’m watching the … Continue reading →

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Bring The Dory Home

Posted on March 23, 2016 by mahines

I’ve always been a night owl.  When I was in high school, I would wait until my mother had gone to bed, then shut the louver doors to my bedroom and flip on the light.  I’d sit up and read with … Continue reading →

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Beauregard

Posted on March 3, 2016 by mahines

I’m an only child.  For many years, I was also the only grandchild.  I lived a very sheltered life.  At least until we moved out of Hoboken when I was seven.  Until then, I had almost no interaction with children … Continue reading →

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The Bad Patient

Posted on February 19, 2016 by mahines

I have always prided myself on being a model patient.  I was the one who never complained.  I stayed cheery and upbeat.  My tolerance for pain and discomfort was a real source of pride.  Ask me how I felt and … Continue reading →

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