Author Archives: mahines

Do The Right Thing

Posted on November 29, 2014 by mahines

Yesterday, we drove to Long Island.  Every year, on the Friday after Thanksgiving, we go to place Christmas blankets on my husband’s parents’ grave.  This year, we placed one on his son’s grave too.  It was a strange day, solemn … Continue reading →

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There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio

Posted on November 20, 2014 by mahines

Yesterday was the six month anniversary of my step-son’s death.  My husband said nothing about it and neither did I.  I thought, perhaps, he didn’t want to talk about it. Matthew’s death has been numbing for all of us.  I … Continue reading →

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On Losing A Friend

Posted on November 19, 2014 by mahines

I grew up in a family that had a cliche for everything.  My mother would have said “When it rains, it pours.”  And she would have been right.  In my life right now I have a sick dog, a sick … Continue reading →

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Angry Bones

Posted on November 18, 2014 by mahines

I have a secret. I have anger in my bones. Deep in the marrow, Hot, burning grains that grind and crunch with every move. And in the darkest chamber of my heart, it pulses with a sickly, green glow. I … Continue reading →

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The Screaming Woman

Posted on November 5, 2014 by mahines

I have a sick dog right now.  He seems to be doing better on medication but I am having a hard time letting myself be hopeful.  This feels like one more body blow from life that I can’t take right … Continue reading →

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Grandmother

Posted on November 4, 2014 by mahines

On Saturday I had a double massage session.  Two hours of sheer bliss.  My body must have know subconsiously that I would be needing extra strenght and stamina in the days to come. As I lay on the table, I … Continue reading →

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Bittersweet Hope

Posted on November 3, 2014 by mahines

I’m exhasted.  I didn’t sleep well last night.  I thought I was ready for this.  I held it together until I picked up Gilligan and put him in the back of the car.  I cried all the way to the … Continue reading →

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On Watch

Posted on November 2, 2014 by mahines

We are on watch today.  We may be losing Gilligan.  My husband found him at the bottom of the stairs this morning.  He was lying in his own pee and couldn’t get up.  We made a bed of towels in … Continue reading →

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Meeting Betty White

Posted on October 27, 2014 by mahines

I’m travling with my husband right now.  We are in Phoenix at a conference.  The best thing about this conference is they always have something interesting at their events.  Last night they had  reptile rescue group.  I had the chance … Continue reading →

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It’s Your Thing

Posted on October 21, 2014 by mahines

I grew up in a time when our mantra was “Do your own thing”.   We all believed we had the right to live our lives whatever way we wanted.  Ironically, though we lived our lives differently than our parents, … Continue reading →

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